To be honest with you I struggle a lot at times. I have my fears, my anxieties, my stresses, and to wake up every morning and be the best man I can possible be through God gets tiring. People annoy me. Circumstances bother me. Not being in any kind of control over my situation straight eats at me. I have put my trust in God and trusting someone besides myself is hard to do. Reminiscing on my life is depressing when you look in the rearview mirror and see nothing but carnage. Lies and deceit, thievery and robbery, meaningless sex and drug abuse. To embrace my choices and not blame my dad for never telling me he is proud of me and always making me feel like I wasn’t good enough. Not to blame growing up poor and living in a trailer park. Not to blame anything or anyone beside myself for my own life is humbling. I could throw blame and receive sympathy, but I will no longer be a “victim”. That poor me shit gets you nowhere fast. Like I say in one of my songs, “life ain’t fair, mindset got my life wrecked!” It’s important to remember that our freedom matters. Hundreds of thousands of moms, dads, brothers, and sisters have sacrificed their lives for our freedom. And not to live up to our fullest is really a dishonor. Do not be conformed to this life, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Romans 12 verse 2, ‘tears and sweat are both salty but render different results’. Tears give you sympathy. Sweat gives you change. Be an over comer. Everything might be falling apart around you but hold you peace. That’s what warriors do.

Bobby J.